Saturday, May 31, 2008

Friday 30th May

I feel I could almost subtitle this blog as 'disgruntlement' but I won't, and instead of moaning, I feel I should make a huge effort and be bright and cheerful. Well I can try. Do you ever get that? You're feeling - not down, just not up, and you want to snipe away at the world, but that makes you feel worse, so you feel you must make an effort to be bright and cheerful because - yep you guessed it, this will make it better. It doesn't - or at least it doesn't for me, but I can live with it.

So, what's new in life? I ordered my new glasses, and I go to pick them up tomorrow. This is the amended pair of new glasses - I'm a wee bit apprehensive about it, as you would expect! I'll let you know how they work out! The glasses aren't the only thing that seem to have turned out to not be quite what I expected - I ordered a new pair of sandals from The Shoe Tailor, and I can't tell you whether I made the mistake when I ordered them, or if the computer messed it up or whatever, but the wrong size has turned up and they have to go back. I'm not wildly thrilled about this!
I went to see Indiana Jones with my friend Abby, yes, well, it's ok I suppose, but nothing to write a blog about. Perhaps that says it all. Actually it's a dvd film, great for a wet boring afternoon. Just not the sort of thing you'd leave the cinema thinking Oh I'm so glad I spent £7.00 watching that. No it's not that bad. It's worth seeing. It's just not leap up and down great. And of course it's got the inestimable bonus of Harrison Ford, who's pretty well worth the money every time.
So anyhow I can't think of anything else to blog about, just thought I'd touch base and all - I'll do better next time promise!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Tuesday 20th May 2008

Oh the unbelievable experiences I'm having with my new glasses! When you have a prescription that's as complex as mine is, there's always a possibility of trouble, but to be honest, I hadn't really been prepared for what I'm experiencing.

I've reached the age when I need to start thinking about things like reading  glasses. Until now, one prescription has always been enough, and it's always been distance vision that I've had difficulties with - ok, like I can only see clearly to just before the end of my nose, but heck, that's distance of a kind. The truth be told that my sight is so bad that uncorrected, I'm registered as being partially sighted. So anyhow, as soon as I ran into trouble with the close work, and the distance vision, I felt the time had come to consider varifocal lenses.  Off I trotted to the opticians, I get the test done, order the new glasses, and in due course collected them, and off I went. I had all of the talking to from the opticians - they'll be difficult to adjust to, there might be problems, etc etc, but truth be told it wasn't a problem. I took it easy over the first few days, didn't rush anywhere and paid attention to where I was putting my feet.

 

The first real hint of trouble was when I got to work, and found that reading the database wasn't as much of a breeze that I thought it was going to be.  And, truth be told, doing the jewellery work wasn't that different to working with the old glasses, I was still moving them up and down my nose to achieve the focus I needed. I was a bit surprised by that.  Then slowly, I started to notice other things that weren't going particularly well - firstly I wasn't anymore able to read at distance than before. Then I started to get what I call a sub-headache - you know the sort of thing, not bad enough to take  a pill, bad enough to make you notice it.  Then on Monday, frankly things deteriorated. I noticed that in Sainsbury's, I couldn't read the signs on the ceiling. I could read the first line, but that was it. Then when I got home, I couldn't read the tv guide that the cable brings up. That was the final straw, I phoned the opticians and went in this morning.  Whilst I was doing that I tried on my old glasses, and found - hey presto - I could actually see better with them than with the new ones.

 

Firstly, they were very nice about this.  They could have just told me it was trouble with the varifocals and that would have been it really, not much I could have done about it. But they did take the trouble to listen, and to re-test my eyes. And that was when we discovered that the prism that I have in the one lens is actually in the wrong lens, that the distance prescription needs to be increased and the reading prescription lessened.  End result is I need an entirely new pair of glasses, which they are going to do for me free of charge - just as well really, because if they hadn't I'd've been trotting off to see what else I could do about this. You don't pay £200 + to get a new pair of glasses that last you for three months.

 

On the other hand it doesn't fill me full of confidence about how long these one's are going to last me...

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Tuesday 6th May

Gosh I've been waiting for the bank holiday to be over and done with so I could dash down to the post office and pick up my latest offering from Amazon. I found this by reading a review of it in the Times, flashed over to Amazon and bought a copy in a shot - needless to say, I then had to wait for the whole of the bank holiday weekend to get my hands on it - all because my postal delivery person doesn't ring the bell and try to deliver stuff to us. No, they just put cards through the door, and I then have to wait more or less a week to get my sorting office to deliver it to the local post office where I can collect it from. I'd be more inclined to go and pick it up myself if it actually opened for normal office hours, but no, they don't seem to be able to manage that.


Anyhow here it is -
It might look like a romantic novel or some sort of trash like that, but I promise it's a biography. So far I've read about three chapters - it opens with Dorothy's account of Williams' marriage. Interestingly, she didn't attend the ceremony herself, but stayed at home in a state of some collapse - laid upon her bed. It's Frances Wilson's (the author) contention that this marked a pivotal point in Dorothy's life - which of course it must, from which her life spiralled downwards towards madness. Mind you I say this, and I've only read three chapters so far. It's packed full of exciting ideas about Dorothy's life, and of course, Wordsworth's too. In fact, so many ideas that I'm hard put to list them here - they're all still bubbling away in my head. If you're interested in it, I'd google the book, and look for the review in the Times a few weeks ago, because it was excellent, although of course as the permeation goes on inside my noggin, no doubt I shall spill some of my opinions onto this blog!!

I have been doing a bit of thinking about what I was writing below, the Patricia Wentworth book. It occurs to me that I've been quite unfair to it, probably because I didn't really care for it, but nevertheless I feel I should revise some of my opinions. Firstly, the central character, Hilary Carew.
Given this book was written in the late 1930s, she's pretty unusual. In fact, it may well have been a pretty good portrait of a new sort of woman that must have been beginning to appear in reality back then. It's not fair to say that she goes and does nothing unless she's being rescued by the stolid fiance. She does actually set off to some strange and outlying village in search of information, and hires a bicycle to go off searching for a cottage that might have been rented by the Butler and wife who may (or may not) be the villains of the piece. Needless to say she runs into trouble, and gets run down by the villains in a car and has to make her way on foot across some fields. Essentially she's not helpless, in the way you would have expected a woman to be helpless say even ten years before. At that point female characters would simply be cyphers for the male action to revolve around - Hilary does take decisions for herself. Having escaped being run down by rolling into a hedge, and forcing her way through it, she then returns to the main town, goes to the local hotel where she then telephones the aforesaid stolid fiance, who turns up to rescue her. So I'm in a quandry as to exactly how helpless Hilary is. But I'm reasonably sure that you could see her as a forerunner of a female action figure within the crime genre. She's not a "Yes Henry" girl, she's a girl who undoubtedly loves Henry, and misses him - at the commencement of the story they've had an argument and parted. But she absolutely isn't crawling back to him, she's absolutely determined that if she has him back it will be on her own terms. She has an interesting phrase for women who aren't capable of sustaining themselves with fortitude - dreeps. At the start of chapter 14, Hilary outlines her thoughts on dreeps, having had another argument with Henry the stolid fiance, who doesn't believe that Geoff, the cousin in prison, didn't commit the murder.
"If she once let Henry down her, her spirit would be broken and she would rapidly become a dreep. Like Mrs Mercer. Like Mrs Ashley. Horrible and repellent prospect. They had probably started quite young and pretty - the Ashley daily help certainly had - and some man had downed them and trampled on them until they had just given up and gone quietly down the drain. She could imagine Mercer breaking any woman's spirit if she was fool enough to let him, and the other woman probably had a husband who trampled on her, too. That was the matter with Henry - he was a trampler born and bred, and burned right in. But she wasn't going to be the person he trampled on. If he wanted a door-mat he could go and marry a door-mat, and it wasn't going to be Hilary Carew."
Nevertheless of course, after all this sterling declaration of independence, in the very next paragraph, Hilary is regretting her thoughts. She puts the argument down to the fact that Henry has probably eaten breakfast, whilst she hasn't - in other words, although she doesn't say it, she takes the blame for the argument onto herself. She blames this on Henry for not feeding her - taking her out to lunch -thus leading to her being unable to do anything but argue. Hilary goes to get a bun and some milk for lunch, whilst Henry dines more substantially, thinking over the second argument.
"He felt a kind of gloomy satisfaction in having held his own. Once he let Hilary think that she could take her way without reference to him and in disregard of his opinion and of his advice, and their married life would become quite impossible. {sic} The trouble about Hilary was that she always wanted her own way, and just because it was her own way it had to be the right one. "
Henry goes on in this tone for a good page or so, until he finally gets round to admitting that there's something fishy in the story that Hilary has told him, and that it would be best to investigate them.
I guess what I'm really going on here is that this is pulp fiction, mass produced at the time for the mass market. Many many people would have read this, and taken it into their consciousness. It must have reflected the thinking and feelings of the time. Here in this common or garden little book is evidence of the changing of the times, the emotional connotations that would fuel the numbers of women shortly about to work in armoury's and manufacturing whilst husbands brothers etc went to war. I'm sure a good number of them would have read this book, probably during the war too, and it would have been lying in the subconscious when the war ended and all of them at the time (or a good number certainly) willingly gave up those jobs and made an attempt to return to their pre-war lives. These were the mothers of the girls born in the fifties - my mother. My mother expected to spend her life looking after her mother and aunt, and had a typing job locally to where they were living until the war broke out. She joined the Wrns, and ended up being posted out to India of all places - so she had five or six years of a reasonably independent life. She was expected to return to looking after her mother and aunt on returning to the country - it's no wonder she took a leap of faith and decided to marry my father. (He proposed to her the very night he met her and she accepted.) I don't think there was any blinding flash of love or anything ridiculous like that. I think there was a blinding flash of this is my way out of that. I think it was a calm and practical decision. It was a way out of dreep-hood!

Monday, May 05, 2008

Monday 5th May

Just a quick note for those of you who caught the original version of the post below - I have realised it's actually the first week in May now, and I've altered the date. I was just having a minor timing issue with the day of the week!!!!
Ok, this is now my third go at this - it's gone midnight, and it's actually now Monday 4th. I will admit here that I don't wear a watch much these days, and times & dates aren't really that important to me. So long as I know where I am on the work rota, that's the guiding principle of my life it seems, and May, November or January, it's all pretty much the same - I look out of the window to figure out the weather - which seems to be increasingly the same, day in day out. You barely need a scarf in the middle of winter these days, and even the warmest of summer days is apt to leave you wishing you'd bought a jumper with you. So apologies for the mix up over the dates, I've fixed everything, and for those of you catching this for the first time - I put it down to night shifts!

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Saturday 2nd May

Well here we are on in May already. This year seems to be really flying by without letting me stop to catch my breath - this week so far (and let's face it, it's nearly over!) I've been over to Winsley, wrenched my back getting off the bus, had my hair cut, been to work -twice so far, although I've more work to do before I can officially call this week over - seen Aston Villa more or less chuck away the hard work of the season by going down 2 - 0 to Wigan of all teams, and felt that frankly this isn't much of a week is it? But then, life isn't about earth shaking events, life's about wrenching your back off the bus, getting haircuts and going to work. If that was all people put in books, you'd have to say it's not much of a book.

Talking of books, I have been reading. I've just finished a short paperback I picked up in the supermarket, a re-print of a very old book, written by Patricia Wentworth called "The Case is Closed." Originally published in 1937 - pre war there. It's a 'Miss Silver' mystery - apparently this Miss Silver is a sort of Miss Marple type sleuth - although I have to say on this evidence, frankly Miss Silver is so minute a character in the story, it's blink and you miss her, more or less. The story revolves around one Hilary Carew, who's looking after her cousin whose husband has just been sent down for murder - missing a hanging sentence by the skin of his teeth. Of course, he's been framed, and Hilary and her fiance (it's 1930s, so of course there has to be a man to take care of her!) with the aid of the aforesaid Miss Silver, discover the vital evidence to show that he didn't do it.
My but it's a real pot boiler - almost every cliche known to man is there. I'm no great student of 20th century crime thrillers - I will openly admit that I've never read an Agatha Christie. (Actually that's shocking and I ought to rectify that speedily!) And having said that, I can't actually say whether Miss Marple is a more rounded character on the written page than this Miss Silver - I will give one a go at some point, and let you know - but I have to say that I thought this was very poor. It's incredibly heavy on factual statements - such and such happened at so much past the clock, etc etc - very little character exposition. Hilary makes you want to slap her she's so tied up with the argument she's had with Henry, the fiance - way too much time is taken up by the are they or aren't they still engaged - you never meet the accused at any point, except through the memories of the other characters who assure you that "He simply couldn't have done it!" It would have been so much more interesting a book if he actually had, and she'd shown a journey of a archetypal pillar of the community to murderer. But I expect that's frankly a journey you couldn't have taken in 1937, without actually being a writer of serious stature, and I expect this woman wasn't.
I have to say I've read some of the Mrs Bradley mysteries, written by Gladys Mitchell and they're really quite fun. They're disarmingly modern, possibly because Mrs Bradley is a student of psychoanalysis, and has such ambiguous relationships with the people in her life. An entirely different style of book, basically, and I'd unhesitatingly recommend a Mrs Bradley book, whereas I shall make sure not to buy anymore Patricia Wentworth, no matter how lurid the front cover!
Mind you, of course if you really want to read the best 20th century crime fiction, go straight for Dashiel Hammet, or Raymond Chandler - you couldn't possibly be disappointed.