Tuesday 4th November

Well I went back to work yesterday. It's been a very hard couple of weeks, and at the moment I sort of feel that the really hard bit is still to come - when a parent dies, you're so busy running around and organising things that the business of grief and mourning almost gets suspended whilst you accomplish those necessary tasks. I still find myself thinking of Mum as if she was still with us, and getting that concomitant shock when I remember she's not - yesterday I had a short walk through Bristol's new shopping centre, and looking at stuff thinking oh that would be good for Mum at Christmas - and she's not going to be there at Christmas! Some days are better than others, you know?
Anyhow I kind of also feel a need, a huge need, to get back to some sort of normality. It was important to get back to work, and very luckily I have a couple of weeks of very short shifts, which is an excellent way to do it. It's nice to see people too, every one's been very kind. So this is a sort of equal stab at getting back to normality - a blog. We're doing ok, all things considered.